you are not alone many of the nurses went through the same way but my case , i worked as a nursing assistant made enough money then went for LPN ( 10 months only if full time student ,part time 2 years)which now is paying for my RN (9 months),in [link removed] i work weekend shifts and go to school during the week thus also reduces your fear of clinicals as when you work you are practicing what you learn in class therefore you will not need to read for clinicals this reduces your stress some times we need to take things a Little slow so as to handle others in our lives but good luck i made and i think you will.