Yakatoma

I do not mean to say something personal about you, contrarily I believe you are honest and kind person, but this top 5 - top 10 thing is an obsession. Life is not in a perfect hierarchy as we sometimes think of it. People move up and down and there are lots of factors going on that you cannot optimize. If you are a good fit with your T12 as you have said, and you love the place/school, move on! Do not exhaust yourself with all the pain and suffering. You can be a good economist anywhere and people will respect you if what you produce is respectable; these apply even more if you are also in a good place, and you are!