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In 2007 while doing my masters from India, that too from the top most national institute in India, I was really frustrated. It burnt me for very brutally. With jealousy and self pity. Because I was in India, not in the greatest universities in west. That being said, I managed to complete my masters with decent GPA (3.55). I was in my early to mid 20s back then. I fortunately got a friend who was much more mature than I was. He was in his early 30s back then. He told me how he had to compromise on his extremely successful business and seek job because of his family situation and encouraged me to forge ahead instead of burning with jealousy. I finished my masters and got a job in one of the top most software development company in the world. There too my frustration and second rate feeling never left me... I knew I had to do something. After 2 years there and one promotion later, I quit that and joined my same friend in a bank as their senior design engineer. I got to travel in EU a lot in my that job.. met many wonderful folks and learnt how people lived their lives and I decided to take the bull by the horn this time. I prepared for GRE and got a decent score (1470 back then). I also wrote TOEFL. Since I was in the bank I decided to try to get into Financial engineering. I applied only in CMU-MSCF and got an admit. This finally closed that wound in my heart. I talked with my friend and my mother (who is herself a banker and a financial expert). She told me that why you want to repeat an engineering master? Its hyper focused... unless you love it with all your mind, do not do it. I let it go. That being said, an admit from CMU in MSCF (at that time, one of the top most MFE program in USA) really put my mind at ease and calmness. Next was my itch to settle in "west". I came to knew that Australia is taking people directly as permanent residents. I applied and got the PR. Went there but decided to settle there in earnest only if I come with my job in hand and a wife with me. Next was marriage which was another story, lets say it happened somehow. I then started applying for jobs with potential to move to Australia once more. I got into a FANG company and an Australian company. FANG one made more sense, so I continued with it. It lead me to immigration to Canada instead of Australia. So I moved to Canada. I finally got a PR here in Canada today. (So I decided to give that thread a closure.) I live on west coast. I have been here for seven years now. Still working for the same FANG company. My son is born here. He will likely not face same issues as I did. Most likely, some different ones. Oh well! There is still road ahead... though my learning is : 1. Do not feel frustrated if path is now clear right now. Things present themselves when they are ready. 2. Do not feel burnt by jealousy. Instead, face your fears and overcome them. 3. Do not obsess over something so much that you loose track of big picture. 4. Make a friend who has seen more things than you do. 5. When you want things in life on your own terms, it takes time and cost.

@Erin Can you please unlock my ancient thread from 2007, link below? Just wanted to give it a closure after so long. Lot happened in my life since that point but I am happy to say that I found peace, success, wishes and family. Just wanted to leave that thread with a closure and my thoughts for someone who is similarly frustrated... after all, though we are all unique, our situations are never brand new. Just in case if that does not happen... Here is not so briefly what happened: In 2007 while doing my masters from India, that too from the top most national institute in India, I was really frustrated. It burnt me for very brutally. With jealousy and self pity. Because I was in India, not in the greatest universities in west. That being said, I managed to complete my masters with decent GPA (3.55). I was in my early to mid 20s back then. I fortunately got a friend who was much more mature than I was. He was in his early 30s back then. He told me how he had to compromise on his extremely successful business and seek job because of his family situation and encouraged me to forge ahead instead of burning with jealousy. I finished my masters and got a job in one of the top most software development company in the world. There too my frustration and second rate feeling never left me... I knew I had to do something. After 2 years there and one promotion later, I quit that and joined my same friend in a bank as their senior design engineer. I got to travel in EU a lot in my that job.. met many wonderful folks and learnt how people lived their lives and I decided to take the bull by the horn this time. I prepared for GRE and got a decent score (1470 back then). I also wrote TOEFL. Since I was in the bank I decided to try to get into Financial engineering. I applied only in CMU-MSCF and got an admit. This finally closed that wound in my heart. I talked with my friend and my mother (who is herself a banker and a financial expert). She told me that why you want to repeat an engineering master? Its hyper focused... unless you love it with all your mind, do not do it. I let it go. That being said, an admit from CMU in MSCF (at that time, one of the top most MFE program in USA) really put my mind at ease and calmness. Next was my itch to settle in "west". I came to knew that Australia is taking people directly as permanent residents. I applied and got the PR. Went there but decided to settle there in earnest only if I come with my job in hand and a wife with me. Next was marriage which was another story, lets say it happened somehow. I then started applying for jobs with potential to move to Australia once more. I got into a FANG company and an Australian company. FANG one made more sense, so I continued with it. It lead me to immigration to Canada instead of Australia. So I moved to Canada. I finally got a PR here in Canada today. (So I decided to give that thread a closure.) I live on west coast. I have been here for seven years now. Still working for the same FANG company. My son is born here. He will likely not face same issues as I did. Most likely, some different ones. Oh well! There is still road ahead... though my learning is : 1. Do not feel frustrated if path is now clear right now. Things present themselves when they are ready. 2. Do not feel burnt by jealousy. Instead, face your fears and overcome them. 3. Do not obsess over something so much that you loose track of big picture. 4. Make a friend who has seen more things than you do. 5. When you want things in life on your own terms, it takes time and cost.

Thank you everyone!!! I would also like to request mods/admins to lock this thread to prevent any unnecessary drama in this thread :D. Closed as requested.

Buy Vista if you dont want to do stuff which messes with kernel (writing drivers etc ) otherwise its painful to do so in Vista (especially on x64). XP is going to fade away ablit slowly, so its better to get accustomed to vista. On the other hand a lot of legacy software (which include CAD software as well) do have trouble with vista, so do check websites of the software vendors for the same. If you are going to buy an XP laptop and later try to upgrade to Vista, you might run into issues with drivers which means you will have to grab them from the net (if at all they are available), in case of a Vista laptop it all comes with the laptop itself. Kindlt DO NOT BELIEVE compatiable with vista logo, I bought a Toshiba Qosmio G-30 laptop (top of the line at that time and costed me a pretty penny) with that logo and till date no driver for SATA is available from toshiba for Vista. All I can do is to look at that label and curse Toshiba. For apache and stuff ... well all you need is lots of RAM have 2GB at least if working with vista for XP ... well 1 GB will do. Finally for linux.... laptops are sold as "Whole Package" with very less freedom to add and delete after sale. DO check for compatiablity with linux... lots of laptops (especially from Sony) dont simply work with linux for one issue or other. If possible take a linux live CD or bootable USB to check it in the showroom itself if the laptop works. I have heard that HP ones do work.

Well yes I do have issues, thats why I am asking in a forum where I think I will find some peers. :) Ok moving on to my disliking towards India... well most of it stems from the fact that I feel pretty much alienate here and secondly, it constantly reminds me that I am a second rate person (professionally, economically and what not), being a citizen of a third world country and my higher education in India offers me no consolation let alone any happiness. Upon the life in US well.... I never believe that it will be easy but there is also a good possibility that i will get better with time, in India even after putting so much of effort its not even budging. And yes its not only iPhone but a lot of things that are and perhaps will always remain "Not available in India". Lastly yes I do agree to your last point as well, I do suffer from jealousy (nothing could be more blatantly obvious). I think that is natural for anyone who knows that he is going to be a second rate dude for rest of his life (Again that plainly my line of thought). Now the big question is "What To be Done?" It OK Erin, I knew if I will tell my problem to anyone the reply can be really harsh, and everyone here has been really decent and reasonable.

Assumptions A. Unconditional Branches are basically "Branch Executed" Let us assume 100 instruction were executed break up will be Type Number Cycles TotalCycles -------------------------------------------------------------- Non-Branch 80 1 80 Brn_Uncond 20x20%=4 1+3 16 Brn_CondEx 16*50%=8 1+3 32 Brn_CondNotEx 16*50%=8 1+1 16 ------------------------------------------------------ 144 ------------------------------------------------------ So CPI = 1.44 (D) Option 48. (E) All of them will help I. Definitely CPI is fix, time per cycle goes down you get the benefit II. Yes, though the effect will be lesser, even in a typical program there can be big loops. Larger Instruction cache will help to fit these loops into faster memory there by increasing the performance. lesser capacity misses. III. Yes, definitely doubling the size of data cache will help, again due to lesser capacity misses.

Q-1 is correct D is the answer Q-2 is NOT Correct! 1. is regular so E is the correct answer as A union B mean a^m b^n (m and n are whole numbers). which is very much a regular expression (a*)(b*). Being close mean (say some set A with operation op) IF a belongs to A and b belongs to A then c = a op b belongs to A as well --NOT-- that for c to belong to A every a and b such that c= a op b, should belong to A. Think in these terms let A be set of integers and op be multiply now... integers are closed under multiplication, right? so 2 x 2 (which is 4 :grad: :D) is an interger, but 3 is integer yet sqrt(3) is'nt yet 3 = sqrt(3) * sqrt(3).

ok as the person above me has already given the answer, I would like to add some more info. Essentially this one uses Cache time and Albdam's Law. A. 1.00 (This cannt happen!! IT MUST BE IMPROVING) B. 1.11 VERY MUCH LIKELY C. 0.89 (This cannt happen!! IT MUST BE IMPROVING) D. 0.96 (This cannt happen!! IT MUST BE IMPROVING) E. 1.89 (Ulikely, as this much improvement is just like doubling) so A. Btw its 24.5/22 = 1.11 which cofirms this line of thinking in this problem.

Well, my case history is long so bear with me!! I was born in India and after my schooling, I started my undergrad in engineering at a reputed national institute (though not IIT), after finishing my undergrad (with good honors) I found myself lacking some knowledge and thought it would be nice to go for further studies (I also had an ulterior motive of leaving India for good as well :evil:) (apparently lot of my friends had thought of this long time back, as most of them were burning midnight oil to get into top US universities and IIMs). As I had never gaven grad studies a serious thought before and it was too late to start prep'ing for GRE at that time, I started looking for other options which came in form of places like IITs and few Singaporean universities. Fortunately I had written GATE in my last year and had sufficient score to make into any IIT for my grad studies. I had also succeeded in acquiring a nice job in one of the most reputed company at that time (things were going alright back then :) ), so I decided to work for a while and take that year to prep up for GRE. With all things going right I was making a decent progress on both the ends, job and study for GRE as well. It was then things started getting bad one after another. I contracted some form of stomach disease (which the doctors are not sure till this day ie after a year and a half with numerous test and diagnosis) which made me bedridden for about 6 months or so, I had to forgo my chance of appearing in GRE and that year's app'ing. So my father told me that since there is no chance for me getting in US universities should join some IIT as my GATE score is still valid for he being very worried about me not going for grad. studies. I had always resented doing my grad studies in India, for I have developed a feeling of absolute hatred for this country for my own reasons. So I was literally forced to take the MTech interviews here in IITs which I qualified(to my own astonishment :eek:). Now I am in one of the IITs doing my Masters and after one year of education I am utterly frustrated with my own self (though somehow I have kept my academic performance pretty decent). To the best of my understanding my frustration stems from the following things. For being a complete failure at recognizing that opprtunity during my undergrad when I had time and health for prep'ing up for GRE. For being in India (which I detest the most and I always wanted to escape from) and knowing that now there will be literally no way to escape out of this hell. For knowing that most of my friends are right now having the best time of their life in countries like United Stated. For simply being a second-rate for rest of my life.All this has caused enough rackus in my head and now I cannt bear it any longer, sometimes it frustates me to an extent of thoughts to kill myself! I know something has to be done with this, as if I dont do anything either my academics will suffer or I might do something crazy which I might resent in the later part of my life. In the beginning I had planned to go for a Phd after my masters here but now I have lost all the interest in that. Please tell me is there any way out and anything which can be done? PS : I must thank anyone to read this much of thing filled with negetive thoughts and I must ask for apologies for any troubles that I might give you in that process.