I really understand how you feel, my journey has not been different. Other day an university professor told me that many English speaking students shouldn’t pass in TOEFL test, and I agree with him. In my opinion the new Ibt Toefl tests more than reading, listening, speaking and writing abilities, it test your ability to reasoning quickly in several situations.
In addition, I believe that the big problem today is the inadequate environment for this kind of test. The TOEFL.org opened several test locations and they aren’t prepared to apply this hard test, mainly the speaking section. Last month I took the test in an ETS school, we were six persons using the same counter with no division or isolation. Since the beginning – reading and listening sections, even using headphones, I heard not only my computer but also the neighbor computer. Than you can imagine how was the speaking section, it was sadly funny, and the school’s staff was so worried with the security procedures!!!
Knok, my suggestion for you is to try relax and give sometime for yourself before taking other test. Do not give up, please.
For new test takers, I suggestion to visit the test location before registration, disruptive environment should be avoid.
All the best,
Solange.